God is good

I do not deny it. Sometimes, I questioned God's plan for me, for Rem. There were several times that I honestly feel he is not answering my prayers. But the more I go to Church and attend bible studies, the more I felt that I should be grateful for many things.

1) Rem did not suffer from brain injury. Imagine, if I could not even communicate with my brother the way we used to. I would not feel that he is Remington. It is way better to sit on a wheelchair and be your old self than walking but not be able to converse with your friends and family. God saved him from banging his head into that hang bar of the car.

2) Rem did not fall into depression. Throughout the whole ordeal, I have been afraid that my brother will fall into depression, even a mild one. But never did he show any signs. In fact, he is optimistic, full of life and forward thinking. He talks about getting a job as a peer mentor, going to Project Walk to pursue extensive rehab. He surprises me and our family. God made this possible. I feel he is continually healing Rem, physically, emotionally and spiritually.

3) I have to deal with so many things concerning my brother, from his care to home renovations to van purchase. There are dealings with contractors, private occupational therapists, insurance company, lawyers, etc. And on top of it all is my full-time job and being a girlfriend. I could have gone crazy over the past few months due to stress and lack of time management. But God has always been watching over me and letting me get through this without much difficulty.

4) I also feel that God has a plan for our family. He has paved the way for my family to come to Canada and an opportunity for them to re-instate their permanent resident status. Through humanitarian reasons (the son and brother suffering from spinal cord injury), my parents and brothers have been granted Canadian visas to visit and take care of Rem.

5) Sterling's love and support throughout this whole ordeal have proven immensely crucial in our relationship. It further re-affirmed his love for me and my family. God has given Sterling to me as an angel to save me from going crazy. Had it not for him, I would probably be in a way worse mindset right now.

Everyday, I strive to be a better Christian. I talk to God and let Him show me the way to live a healthy Christian life. All my problems, I lift them up to Him. I meet great people who share the same beliefs I do, who I look up to. This is all possible because God is good to those who share relationships with him, to those who never give up on praying.


Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. - Galatians 6:9

Cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you. - Psalm 55:22

God is good

I do not deny it. Sometimes, I questioned God's plan for me, for Rem. There were several times that I honestly feel he is not answering my prayers. But the more I go to Church and attend bible studies, the more I felt that I should be grateful for many things.

1) Rem did not suffer from brain injury. Imagine, if I could not even communicate with my brother the way we used to. I would not feel that he is Remington. It is way better to sit on a wheelchair and be your old self than walking but not be able to converse with your friends and family. God saved him from banging his head into that hang bar of the car.

2) Rem did not fall into depression. Throughout the whole ordeal, I have been afraid that my brother will fall into depression, even a mild one. But never did he show any signs. In fact, he is optimistic, full of life and forward thinking. He talks about getting a job as a peer mentor, going to Project Walk to pursue extensive rehab. He surprises me and our family. God made this possible. I feel he is continually healing Rem, physically, emotionally and spiritually.

3) I have to deal with so many things concerning my brother, from his care to home renovations to van purchase. There are dealings with contractors, private occupational therapists, insurance company, lawyers, etc. And on top of it all is my full-time job and being a girlfriend. I could have gone crazy over the past few months due to stress and lack of time management. But God has always been watching over me and letting me get through this without much difficulty.

4) I also feel that God has a plan for our family. He has paved the way for my family to come to Canada and an opportunity for them to re-instate their permanent resident status. Through humanitarian reasons (the son and brother suffering from spinal cord injury), my parents and brothers have been granted Canadian visas to visit and take care of Rem.

5) Sterling's love and support throughout this whole ordeal have proven immensely crucial in our relationship. It further re-affirmed his love for me and my family. God has given Sterling to me as an angel to save me from going crazy. Had it not for him, I would probably be in a way worse mindset right now.

Everyday, I strive to be a better Christian. I talk to God and let Him show me the way to live a healthy Christian life. All my problems, I lift them up to Him. I meet great people who share the same beliefs I do, who I look up to. This is all possible because God is good to those who share relationships with him, to those who never give up on praying.


Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. - Galatians 6:9

Cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you. - Psalm 55:22

Slap in the Face. Ouch!

One of the things I hate the most is people questioning my decisions. I get the feeling that my integrity is being put in line. Some people have been giving me that feeling these past few days. And honestly, I cannot shake off the annoyance I feel towards them (although I really want to).

Sometimes, I really do feel alone in dealing with everything. Every big decision I make is met with criticism (Harsh, I must add). I mean, give me a break! These people do not even know the reasons behind my decisions. I do not think they even want to know either. But there they go, questioning me, putting me down, making me feel that I am a useless, inconsiderate person.

Most of my world revolve around my brother's recovery. I will do everything possible to get him up and walking. I guess the decisions that I have been making towards his recovery are pissing some of my relatives off (or only a particular person). I honestly do not think this person even has the right to tell me what to do or diss my decision. Maybe this person just wants me to ask for her opinion on things (As she would say, respect the elders). But aren't I old enough to make my own decisions?

I am very disappointed with the other person. Questioning me came as such a surprise, I found it difficult to bring myself back to be around him without feeling uncomfortable. It's like "WHAM, Lianne, your decisions are bad!" Slap in the face. Ouch!